Up until a few years ago, I used to invest my money and time into accessorising myself and making myself look pretty.
I would spend £££ on designers clothes, handbags, skincare products and make-up. I would spend my free time getting my hair done or flip through fashion magazines trying to keep up with the latest trends and fashions or sipping glass of wine in a fancy restaurant.
I would spend my morning in front of the mirror with my make-up bag. I would be proud of myself working in one of the Big 4 in the City, dressed in a designer dress and high heels with a designer bag. I would go to the fancy bars or restaurants after work with similar City workers smoking and drinking away all night.
I was spoiled with nice things. I worked god damn hard when I was at work (even though I hated the job) so that I can be that person who works in a glamorous office in the City.
I studied hard towards my accounting qualification because I’d been told working in the finance world means a high paid job. Little did I know, my lifestyle was neglecting my health. I was neglecting my own identity.
It’s so easy to follow others and do what other people are doing. I didn’t realise by doing that I was neglecting my identity. I was somebody else. Looking back to this period of my life makes me feel really uneasy. I put all my energy to being someone that doesn’t exist instead of taking care of my health & wellbeing, self-development and doing something I truly love.
I think the turning point was when I started taking yoga more seriously, physically but also spiritually too. I was starting to notice how I feel towards things started to change. I slowly shifted away from people with whom I no longer felt connected.
I started making changes to my lifestyle, my perspective towards life and my habits. I walked away from the private sector. I walked away from the relationships that no longer served me. I felt it was so important to be surrounded by the right people that inspire me and gives me the right energy.
A few years later, I feel great to be myself. I am now investing my money and time into my health & wellbeing and learning new things that I truly love.
I switched designer dresses to comfortable yoga outfits. I switched my designer skincare and make-up to natural or homemade products.
I switched my evenings in the fancy restaurants to yoga classes and learning new skills. I switched working late in the office to cooking and eating home cooked dinner at home with my partner.
My life has become busier but satisfying. But at the same time, I don’t regret going through that period in my 20s. I wouldn’t be here where I am now, if I hadn’t experienced that myself.
So take a moment and ask yourself. Do you follow your heart? Do you have your own identity?
Are you doing or working towards something you truly love? Are you surrounded by people that inspire you and give you the right energy?